Today I failed


Jessa Baila

It’s day 7 of my 21-day fix
and I failed today.
 I set my alarm nice and early so that I could get up and do my workout before church. From the moment it went off I grumbled. I decided to hit snooze one too many times and them contemplated not getting up at all.
But I did get up. And I grumbled my way to my living room. And I grumbled my way through clearing a space for my workout because I forgot to do it the night before. And I grumbled my way through switching to the DVD player and switching the disc and reading through the warnings and blah blah blah.
lightstock_62341_small_user_179504When the workout finally came on I was in no mindset to actually work. I set myself up for failure from the moment I decided that my laziness was more important.
I went through the motions of the warm up – trying to cheat here and there, and then it was time for round one.
I did my best through the first set – but it was hard.
The second set came along and I tried, but then I felt like I was going to puke.
Instead of pushing my way through it, I gave up. Immediately I turned the DVD off and went to lay down, grabbing a trash can in the process just in case.
2 minutes later I was fine, but I had already given up so I stayed where I was.
I failed.
I failed because I forgot why I am doing this.
I’m not doing this program to look good or feel better, although those are great side effects to it.
I’m doing this program because I want to honor God with my body.
I want to be able to do whatever he calls me to do and not have to worry about if my body can handle it.
I don’t want my body – or myself – to get in the way of what God is calling me to do with my life.
THAT is why I’m doing this.
And this morning I lost sight of that.
Throughout this week, I’ve been reminded of the verses that talk about doing everything as if unto the Lord.
That includes my day to day work;
that includes my job;
and yes,
that includes my workouts.
I did not work as if unto the Lord today, and that is why I failed.
But. The good news is that even though I failed, the day is not lost – the war hasn’t been won. Every moment is a choice. I am choosing NOT to be defeated but rather to persevere onward to what God is calling me to do.
Be encouraged. Even if you fail – it is not the end!